Dreamy Wonderland

so much thing I had learned this past week..

so much tears had been shed to learn things..

want to tell you all, bloggie...

please just wait another week

我睡不早着呢。 因为想起了一些事。

希望不会发生吧，否则， 我会很伤新。

Hmm, 想起以前有看过一个MV.

满喜欢地。也许因为在MV里， 有看到我满喜欢的明星扳穷人，所一心动了。

可是， 现在想起，我非常喜欢这首歌。

歌词也很有意义。

是伊能静唱的歌，我想是一首老歌吧。

歌名是 ” 你是我的幸副吗？“

我把歌词写下，好吗？

好听吗？？(Do you like this song?)

希望你们也和我一洋会喜欢这首歌。。(hope that all of you will love it, just like I do..)

=)

I hate it when it's like this.

Today, actually, since morning, I had had a nice day, a nice sunday, a nice holiday..

it's such a good day, that I sang to myself, smiled to myself like a silly person.

I imagined everything good..

maybe, even the world will be affected by my good mood, and smiled happily too...

(hmm, maybe I'm a little bit exaggerated in describing it)..

the point is, I'm really happy today..

until just now....

I had just met my ARCH ENEMY............

AAAAAARRRGHHHH..., IT RUINS MY DAY JUST LIKE THAT..

you know what..?

I HATED HIM SO MUCH THAT if my senses haven't controlled my emotion, I would go over and start hitting, kicking, pulling his hair, pinching, cursing and done anything I could to make him hurt...

actually, I had done all of that in my mind since then.., But I'm just not satisfied yet..

(Ooooppsss..., a mature and refined girl shouldn't have done all of this right..??)

You know what.., 

When I finally got to my room, I can't describe how angry I am..

my chest just hurt so much and I can't controlled my breath normally..

and, I'm so angry that I shed my tears unconsciously.

And I super hate it when I shed my tears out of angriness towards unworthy person.

he's just not worth of my tears.

Then, I thought back.

someone once said that the reason of anything that happen in this life is our karma. 

Maybe we'd done something bad towards each other in our past life, that caused us to hate each other.

hatred is not an easy thing after all. 

It made us upset. It made us angry.

It stipulated us to think of anything possible to hurt the other. 

It is also not easy to forgive once we had hatred in our heart.

By the end of the day, you wouldn't get anything out of this angriness, upsetness and hatred.

what we would have gotten are a bunch of bad karmas for thinking bad thoughts and keep hatred for others.

my mom said that a monk said to her : one way to reduce the hatred is to pray with lots of love and dedicated it to the person we hate. 

Ahh, how can I do that..? I'm not that generous. 

I'm just a normal human being, and I hated him so so so much.

so, fellows..

have you ever hated someone so much..? Can you overcome it? how to?

=(