Thursday, January 27, 2011

"if one can not control its own minds, then he shall be controlled by them"

huaaaaa....

when i want to start believing and have faith in something, then a small portion of my mind started to make me lose faith in it

and

when i want to lose both hope and faith, my mind would also convince me that there is still a glimmer of hope, and I shouldn't give up so easily...


but, I am tired of hoping and every disappointment is hurtful
*sigh

but I believe one day later I will go past it..., everything will be over and I would know the last result. It's just that maybe now is the time to prepare for either best or worst results.
still hoping for the best results though.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Titanic and Death

Hello again bloggie..., I'm very sorry for neglecting u these past few months..
I'm sorry that I kept making lame excuses to postpone what I had been intending to write..
Now, it's less than an hour until new year, year of 2011
I'm in my own home, in Tanjung Balai Karimun, but, I'm alone only with my beloved mum and with you, bloggie, hikss2... My dad is in Taiwan currently, accompanying my grandma (his mum) to watch fireworks.
and that's a little about me..,
now, let's get back to more serious topic.

A week ago, when I came back to my hometown, I received a very bad news.., that was the wife of the youngest brother of my grandfather from my father side (is it confusing??, hehehe) was dying. she had many serious illness like diabetes, kidney's failure and many more. Later that night, my mum took me to her house to pray for her, to "send" her away with chants so that she could follow Buddha to a better place. She did passed away when we are praying for her, after hanging on difficultly (she breathed very difficultly in the last moment) for quite a long time. I felt very sad, because when I was young, me and my siblings would ate her noodles or kwetiau almost every week.., It was very very delicious. and she is a nice person, very friendly.

After she passed away, I remembered that I had read an article about death, that left a deep impression in me. I wanted to share this article to my blog readers.
That article was taken from a book called "Cerah Setiap Hari, 366 Hari Renungan Pencerahan"
(it was translated to Indonesian from the original book named "The Daily Enlightenment")
It was a book about matters to think on every single day, based on Buddhism, written by Shen Shian.
Now, I will try to translate back to English, to share it with all of you. Please note that this is not the original script of the book, Its purely my work, so please understand if there are any mistake.
here it is.


DEATH AND TITANIC


For me, what's more meaningful than the love story in the film 'TITANIC', is how different people's reaction when facing the approaching death, which are :
  1. The designer of the ship, who looked like he's in fault, very sad, and remorseful; pondering over his mistakes; and let other people saved their lives with emergency boats
  2. The capten of the ship, looked very attached, trapped by his broken reputation and his dreams which will never again came true. He hold his hat, not planning to save himself and wait for his death.
  3. The bad guy who tried to bribed and cheat to save himself
  4. An officer who can not overcome the stress when trying to discipline the panicking crowd. He was forced to shoot a passenger who didn't want to queue up. Feeling remorseful and helpless, he then shot himself.
  5. There are also people who jumped straight into the sea, swam to chase on the leaving boats
  6. There are also a bunch of people, who prayed with high spirit, asking for help
  7. Most people scrambled to get in the emergency boats
  8. There are also people (like Jack and Rose) who wouldn't want to be apart, and don't care about the people in their surrounding
  9. and, of course there are also a group of musician who made bistory by playing the music until the end to calmed the panicked people down.
So, the question is : when you are in the TITANIC on that night, how will you react? Do you consider your reaction is right? what is right?

TITANIC is a true story about a big disaster. It was the only ship in the history that were said to be unsinkable, but it sank on its first sailing. What is the connection with us??

Many of us feel that we are TITANIC : We often behaved like we would never die. We often felt that we are unbeatable by age, illness, and death. unbeatable by the law of momentary. covered by big illusion. Momentary is not meant to be talked only, it should be felt. Approaching death is a strong motivation for us to reach Nirvana, a condition that has beaten death.


Right on the day we were born, we are each TITANIC which are sinking, we are starting our journey to death. The problem is we never know how much part of the ship is above the water. Have you planned on the way to save yourself? How would you get out of that ship?


There is an ancient proverb from India :
" The most amazing thing in the world is that we all lived as we will still lived tomorrow morning "


one tomorrow in the future, we will not live anymore, and what's frightening is the tomorrrow might be the real tomorrow. Let's hope that we treasure this life and be aware of how to go past life and death. Yes, be aware of it today, because tomorrow might be too late.


Yes, yes, you might had heard about this advice thousands of times. So, would it be like one of those advices? You decide it for yourself
you can start to think of it seriously now, or tomorrow??


That's it. Interesting as well as frightening for me.
what do you think..., I will be happy to hear your opinion about it too, you can write it in comment box. or email directly to : 'enchanting_lotus230489@yahoo.com'
yes, yes, yes, I am indeed a lotus maniac, hihihihi

anyway, I think my post is maybe appropriate to end a year but, is unauspicious to start a new year..
so here, I want to wish all of you a very happy new year...
may you all stay happy and healthy for a long time...
and may you are closer to reach your dreams..

Happy New Year Everyone...!!!
be blessed.

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