Dreamy Wonderland

Once upon a time, in a peaceful village, lived two children...

Just name them Haohao and Youyou...

Their parents' house were build side by side, so they had always played together...

Years passed.., and as these two children grew up, they became best friends...

Their relationship as best friends was enviable to other children in that village, even some adults seem to be envy too.

Haohao and Youyou then went to same elementary school.

they would walk to school together, holding hands.

they sat next to each other in the classroom.

they ate together during every lunchtime.

they would also play together in the recess time.

when the school time passed,

they would go home together, walking with their hands holding on each other.

they would do their homework together and play together afterwards.

In short, they really spent most of their time together.

And they really enjoyed it much...

much than anyone can imagine.

Haohao and Youyou had much similarities.

They had the same hobby, had the same favorite hero, loved the same subjects, liked same kind of foods, did same sports, loved same game.

the only big difference between them is

Haohao is rather talkative while Youyou is much more quiet. 

But differences had never bothered them.

Haohao and Youyou then attend the same high school.

They joined the same students' club, the science researching club

the teacher which is responsible to guide the science researching club is very satisfied these two teenagers performance and thus offered them a very rare chance to participate in the national researching competition as a team. They would be the only representative of their village. 

Of course, the two of them did not let go of this offer. They worked very hard for the competition and they are determined to win the competition.

But unfortunately, just two months before the competition, Haohao had acccident. He was ran over by a motorcycle. The motorcyclist was drunk and had not sober when he ran over Haohao.

Haohao was hospitalized because of the seriousness of the injuries. The local doctor said that Haohao will be partially paralyzed. He would need a wheelchair to assist his movement. 

Haohao was very heartbroken and very depressed.

Needless to say, Youyou is very heartbroken too. Everyday, he would spare some time to go to the hospital and accompany Haohao. But, often, Haohao was asleep during Youyou's visit, so he didn't knew his best friends had came. Sometimes, Haohao's imagination ran wild and made he think that his best friends would abandon him in this state. 

While Haohao was hospitalized, Youyou took upon himself, the responsibility of Youyou. He took over Haohao's weekly task of cleaning the classroom. He also did all hard experiments for the national researching competition all by himself. Other than that, he was also searching a vehicle to rent, so that he could bring Haohao together with him to the competition. The teachers had persuaded Youyou to search for a new partner to replace Haohao. A new partner will help Youyou accomplish the hard experiments, but Youyou never agreed to the persuasion. He knew the competition meant much to Haohao, as it meant much to him. He promised himself that he would preserved on no matter how hard it would be. He wanted to make Both his and Haohao's dream came true.

Youyou is soon tired because of the much activities he had taken, but he never complained to anyone or blamed anyone. He never told Haohao about how he has handled various things since his absence.

Other than doing experiments and school's thing, Youyou would also went to Haohao's home to keep him informed of all the school subjects. He also took the effort to search for any medication, possible to cure Haohao, making him able to walk again. Often, he became too tired to spent more quality time with Haohao. 

Haohao soon began to feel that Youyou didn't care about him for Youyou had spent such little time with him since the accidents. He didn't want to lose Youyou, but can't help feeling that Youyou was abandoning him.

A few days later, on Youyou's visit, Haohao can saw how tired Youyou was and he knew that Youyou's heart wasn't there with at all. But, Haohao misunderstood Youyou. He thought that Youyou was starting to disliked this routine to visit him, and thus, there was that expression on Youyou's face. He can't bear this any longer, than he shouted:

" Youyou, I am Heartbroken..!!! You didn't care for me anymore, right???!!! How could you do this to me??"

Youyou could never be more shocked by Haohao's words.

That night, he started thinking what has gone wrong? He has cared for Haohao like no one has ever done. He cared much for Haohao, but why Haohao didn't get it and even misunderstood him badly?? He then got the answer when he was watching dorama.

Youyou finally got it.

He was making a mistake, a big mistake.

He had cared much about Haohao, but he never said it or even mention it out to Haohao.

All of this time, he was just doing things that he thought might pleased Haohao.

But, who knows, what Haohao needs was just his attention and his time to spare with.

Despite the many things he had done or sacrificed for Haohao as his way of caring and concerning his friends, the most important thing is expressing the concern verbally.

All of this time, Youyou has thought that there is no need for him to speak out his concern. It's kind of showing off that he is concern, while he didn't like showing off. But by Speaking it out, didn't have to mean that that person is showing off. Speaking out our concern is necessary just to let other know that they are still being cared, there are still people showing them concern and understand their situation.

Immediately, he went to Haohao to tell him all the truth, how he has always put Haohao in the first place and how he had always cared for him. They then hugged and cried all night, and continued to be the best friends for each other.

Youyou then made a pact with himself to change over. He will be a more caring person, not just by his method of silencing, but by expressing it out verbally.

Starting from now on, he will let others know when he cared for others, by SAYING IT OUT of course.

bingung terhadap perasaanku sendiri...

bingung terhadap pikiran-pikiran yang muncul...

bingung terhadap sikap-sikapku sendiri...

Sebenarnya tidak ada yang spesial dengan kunjungan kami ke rumah kompos ini, hehe...

Setelah melakukan semua kewajiban kami, kami pun berjalan kaki menuju kampus kami dengan menyusuri tanjakan sambil berbincang-bincang santai. Di tengah perjalanan kami, kami terhenti di tengah tanjakan. Ada apakah gerangan??? ternyata dari tanjakan, tempat kita berhenti, dapat terlihat lapangan bola yang luas. Di lapangan bola itu ternyata sedang dilangsungkan pertandingan final sepak bola dalam ajang Olimpiade 2009 kampus kami. Hmm, para pria pun merasa tertarik untuk berhenti dan menyaksikan pertandingan tersebut sejenak dari kejauhan. Apa boleh buat, saya pun ikut-ikut aja...

setelah mengamati dan menganalisis beberapa saat.., mereka (tiga orang teman saya yang pria ini) pun mengambil kesimpulan bahwa akan dilangsungkan tendangan pinalti dan menurut mereka akan sangat seru. Pada saat itu, terlihat seperti ada orang yang menandai lapangan (mgkn untuk tempat bolanya.., saya juga tidak ngerti) sementara pemain-pemain terlihat berkeliaran begitu aja dan supporter-supporter terlihat sangat-sangat antusias dan bersemangat sekali dengan yell-yell mereka...

Sebutlah pertandingan final itu dimainkan oleh jurusan A melawan jurusan B..

Sesaat sebelum melakukan tendangan pinalti itu, entah kenapa semua supporter jurusan A tiba-tiba bergerombol menyebrang lapangan dan semua supporter jurusan B pun berjalan menghampiri supporter jurusan A. Kedua kelompok supporter ini pun hampiiiiir melakukan perkelahian. Beruntung panitia Olimpiade sadar akan hal tersebut dan berhasil menengahi kedua kelompok supporter ini sebelum perkelahian terjadi. 

beberapa saat kemudian (yang terasa sangat lama), akhirnya adu pinalti dimulai. Adu pinalti ini kemudian dimenangkan oleh jurusan A. Semua supporter jurusan A tentunya senang sekali. Setelah memastikan kemenangan jurusannya, para supporter A mulai berlarian ke tengah lapangan. Awalnya aku mengira, para supporter pasti ingin memberikan ucapan selamat kepada para pemainnya secara langsung...

Tapi ternyata, dari arah yang berbeda, sebagian supporter jurusan B juga berlarian ke tengah lapangan, yang kemudian disusul sama teman-teman lainnya. Apa yang terjadi? Supporter dari kedua jurusan pun berkelahi, adu jotos, berantem di tengah lapangan. Sepertinya juga terjadi ssaling dorong-dorongan, saling desak-desakan di sana. Intinya, keadaan di sana benar-benar kacau, rusuh dan tidak terkendali lagi. Aku sangat terkejut dengan adegan yang terjadi di lapangan bola ini, hingga terdiam beberapa saat. Setelah menonton perkelahian beberapa saat (yang juga terasa agak lama), kami pun beranjak pergi, tidak ingin terlibat masalah apapun.

Ketika dalam perjalanan menuju kampus, pikiran saya melayang kemana-mana. Selama ini, saya hidup dalam dunia yang aman-aman dan damai-damai saja. Jujur, saya belum pernah melihat tawuran atau demo anarkis atau aksi-aksi sejenis secara langsung. Dalam ingatan saya, scene terburuk yang pernah saya saksikan secara langsung adalah demo kecil penggusuran tempat judi dengan membakar mesin jackpot. Dan scene itupun tidak terlalu saya ingat, karena saya melihatnya waktu kecil dahulu. Saya hanya ingat saya menangis melihat scene yang mengerikan itu.

Ketika melanjutkan perjalanan menuju kampus, dalam otak, saya terus bertanya-tanya Kenapa perkelahian ini harus terjadi? Kenapa harus saling berantem? 

Andaikan kedua belah pihak dapat mundur selangkah, atau setidaknya menahan diri, maka perkelahian tidak akan terjadi. 

Andaikan supporter jurusan B dapat bersikap sportif dan menjunjung tinggi semangat olahraga dan Andaikan supporter jurusan A dapat bersikap tenggang rasa terhadap perasaan supporter B yang mungkin  kecewa atau sedih atau mungkin belum siap menerima kekalahan ini, maka perkelahian pasti tidak akan terjadi.

Tapi yang terjadi justru sebaliknya daripada yang ada di angan-anganku...

arogansi setiap jurusan di kampuku terlalu tinggi..

Aku sedih memikirkannya...

Jurusan A dan Jurusan B berasal dari kampus yang sama. Perlukah hanya demi satu pertandingan olahraga, kedua jurusan ini berkelahi, bahkan bermusuhan.

BAYANGKAN SAJA....!!!!, SATU PERGURUAN TINGGI, SATU ALMAMATER, dan hal ini bisa terjadi...

malukah kita jika hal ini tersebar keluar?

bukankah, dalam satu almamater, kita harus saling mendukung, saling membantu sama lain...

setidaknya, begitulah pemikiran yang ada di otak saya...

Jika dalam suatu perguruan tinggi saja, para mahasiswanya tidak bersatu, bahkan terpecah belah..., 

bagaimana kita menyatukan mahasiswa dari perguruan tinggi berbeda..?

bagaimana kita menyatukan semua masyarakat dalam satu daerah...?

bagaimana kita menyatukan masyarakat dari daerah berbeda...?

dan bagaimana pula kita membuat indonesia satu...?

dan satu hal lagi, yang melakukan perkelahian adalah mahasiswa..., MAHASISWA...!!!

Jika mahasiswa hanya bisa menyelesaikan kekesalan, ketidakpuasan atau ke...an-ke...an lain dengan perkelahian dan kekerasan.., buat apa mereka masih menyandang gelar mahasiswa??

Mahasiswa seharusnya merupakan kaum terpelajar, atau setidaknya sudah bisa membedakan mana yang baik atau buruk; mana yang benar atau salah; mana yang pantas atau tidak untuk mereka lakukan.

coba tanyakan kepada seorang anak tk (taman kanak-kanak) atau anak SD, apakah berkelahi itu baik? apakah berkelahi itu benar? apakah berkelahi itu pantas? 

Malukah kita jika mendengar jawaban mereka ?

Waah, jadi panjang tulisannya, padahal awalnya ga ingin sepanjang ini...

Hmm, jadi ingin kembali lagi ke masa-masa tk (taman kanak-kanak) yang riang gembira, damai, serta penuh dengan rasa persahabatan, ketidakegoisan, angan-angan dan mimpi...

Apakah aku terlalu naif jika mengharapkan dunia ini yang aman dan damai??

Masihkah mungkin hal itu terjadi??

Masih bolehkah aku berharap??

I bet none of you could ever guess it correctly...

the 'we', I am talking about, refers to me and kungfu panda...

hehehe...

and so, let the story begins...

I have been greatly troubled by some personal matters this very week. I have been feeling that I am not welcomed by a group of people. What's worse is actually they hate me so much and they are not hiding their emotions. 

The problem is, I didn't feel that I had done them any wrongs, in fact, I felt that I didn't do anything. I barely even know them so well to do them anythings, much more do them any wrongs. I am greatly troubled, feels great pressure, and much much stressed by this problem.

But, as always, I keep this trouble to myself, let no one knows about it and try to be cheerful in front of other people because I don't want to cause anyone, especially my friends, to become unhappy and worry 'bout me. 

Until now, these troubles and stresses is bearable to me.., but who knows for how much longer can I hold on?? 

Someday, When I am not strong enough to hold or bear these stresses, What am I gonna do?

and what has my problem's got to do with Kungfu Panda..?

A few days ago, when I am idling around, I watched over Kungfu Panda's movies to kill my free time. Ohmy, I love cartoons so much, that I wouldn't get bored watching them over and over again..., such a childish me..., hehe...

When in the middle of the film, one scene greatly took my whole attention and I am shock by the similarity of the situation that me and the kungfu panda (let's call him, po) are experiencing.

here is that scene...:

Master Oogway, carrying a lantern, approached Po on the peach tree hill...

Po was feeling upset, and so was eating many peachs alone.

and here is the conversation :

Master Oogway : I see you have found the Sacred Peach Tree of Heavenly Wisdom.

Po : Is that what this is? I am so Sorry. I thought It was just a regular peach tree.

Master Oogway : I understand. You eat when you are upset.

Po : Upset? I'm not upset. What makes you think I'm upset?

Master Oogway : So, why are you upset?

Po : Hhhh... I probably sucked today more than anyone in the history of kung fu. In the history of China and the history of sucking. (sorry, if the word sucked  and sucking is too rough, but Po said that.)

Master Oogway : Probably

Po : And the Five ! Man, you should've seen them! They totally hate me

Master Oogway : Totally

Po : How is Shifu ever going to turn me into the Dragon Warrior? Hhhh... I mean, I'm not like the Five. I've got no claws, no wings, no venom.. Even Mantis has those thingies.. Maybe I should just quit and go back to making noodles

Master Oogway : 

And trust me...

the similarties are not just the condition that we are hated by a group of people and we are feeling very  desperate and stressed out

another similarity is that

I do eat when I am upset..., really

ohya, kind of not-so-important thing, but I love the character of master oogway much, hope that someday I will be as wise as him