Dreamy Wonderland

"if one can not control its own minds, then he shall be controlled by them"

huaaaaa....

when i want to start believing and have faith in something, then a small portion of my mind started to make me lose faith in it

and

when i want to lose both hope and faith, my mind would also convince me that there is still a glimmer of hope, and I shouldn't give up so easily...


but, I am tired of hoping and every disappointment is hurtful
*sigh

but I believe one day later I will go past it..., everything will be over and I would know the last result. It's just that maybe now is the time to prepare for either best or worst results.
still hoping for the best results though.